Fathers Day

Well, I have tried a couple times to blog about this day but never seemed to finish.  I just didn't have or couldn't make the words come.  Today is father's day.  I am sad that my father is not here to celebrate with but will attempt to tell you about what kind of person he was. 
I can tell you all the typical stuff about him being a hard worker, a provider, a supporter but I really want to tell you that he was truly my safe place.  Now most girls would tend to lean on their mother if things were not going right but I leaned on my father.  He was my rock.  Always there with words of wisdom to make me see that things were not as bad as I had thought.  I never really remember Dad being hands on when I was young.  Raising kids was "womans work" and he left that up to Mom.  But after Mom passed away that is when my relationship grew with my father.  He was here helping us build the kennel when he had his first heart attack.  I recall vividly putting him in the truck (never do that, always call an ambulance) and driving him to the hospital.  I remember waiting while the transported him to Indianapolis and recalling all too much that it was an instant replay of mother.  Dad was fine for awhile but other health issues began to creep in and those problems led to surgeries that would have him end up recouperating at our home.  I can see it as plain as day, Ashley and Lena (mostly Lena) "doctoring his leg" where they had made the incision to remove the vein to repair the heart.  He loved his grandchildren and they loved him back.  I recall many good times with him just sitting on the patio and watching him play with the girls.  I miss him and honestly cannot wait to see him again.  I hope he and mother are saving a place for me in heaven because I know that this is my temporary home and someday I will get to see them again.  Too many tears are running at this moment to finish this blog and I really shouldn't have waited until fathers day to write this.  I guess the pain is just too real and as much as I think I can go on without him I do miss him so.  So...Until I get there, save a place for me...I'll be there soon.  Love you Daddy!