I have always intended for my blog to be a footprint, a diary of sorts for my children, grand children and their children. I want them to be able to see and read my thoughts after I am gone. I want them to be able to feel through the words that I leave (although be it electronically) how much I loved them. With that being said. On February 25th we found out the gender of our first grand baby. Now, let me say that I will love all of my grandchildren equally. None is more important or more loved than any other. I WANT THAT TO BE CLEAR! However, the excitement that comes with the first one is a feeling that I cannot even begin to explain. I thought, when I found out that Lena and Jacob were expecting that I would feel love like I felt for both girls when I found out I was expecting. But it isn't like that at all. It is a different feeling knowing that one of my babies is carrying a baby. I am emotional beyond belief when I think about the little one that is growing inside of her. A very long time ago I read a story about how you should pray for your children. It said you should pray for them emotionally, physically, spiritually, financially, and I have done that every day since I read that. I prayed for them and for their children (my grand children) even before they were conceived. Today, I continue those prayers and I add a special that the little one that Lena is carrying will grow and develop with no health issues along the way. I want this baby to be healthy, first and foremost. It is something I pray about multiple times a day even if it is just a simple whisper to God that he will protect this baby every second of every day.
I never knew that it was possible to love someone so very much that I have never even laid eyes on, however the connection that I have to this little one is so strong and so real. I can hardly wait to lay eyes on this baby for the first time. So with out further ado,
We are having a
GIRL!
Due July 13, 2015
Her name: Lincoln Von Brown
So, Miss Lincoln Von I hope that you stumble across this blog someday, maybe when you are 10 or 20 years old and I hope you understand that even before you were born we loved you. I LOVED YOU. The photo to the left is what your Mommy and Daddy looked like the day we found out you were a girl! Quite possibly one of the happiest days of our lives. And maybe one of the scariest for your Daddy! We had a party that night with all of your family. Me and your Pap were there, your Auntie Fosh came all the way home from Evansville to be there, Grandma and Grandpa Vincz, Grandpa and Grandma Brown, Uncle Jer, and cousin Dewey were there too. Your Aunt Grace was there and she was excited that you were a girl! The love that we felt that day was amazing and real and it was all for you little one! Don't ever think for one second that you are not loved because while there will come times when you think your Mommy and Daddy are the most terrible parents in the world they have loved you unconditionally from the very moment you were conceived. I love you my little princess. No matter what I will never ever stop. You are my first and I may make some mistakes being a Nan, I have never been a Nan before, it is my hope that you will always know that I love you....FOREVER! I look forward to watching you grow into a beautiful young woman. I have no doubt that you will be smart and funny too. I know that you will teach me how to be a Nan for your cousins and brothers and sisters down the road. Thanks for being my trailblazer! We will learn how to do this thing together.
Love you!
Nan....
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